Are you ever just in a moment and you stop and think to yourself – this is amazing.
This moment, this millisecond of time in the universe is amazing. And how you wish you could live in that moment forever and not have to go on dealing with the million of things you have to cross off on your to-do list. Those moments are few but when they happen, I try with every inch of my power to hold onto them. I have to physically stop whatever I’m doing and just stare at every part of what’s presently happening. It’s probably so weird to witness, I look like a zombie when I zone out – but I promise I’m not just thinking about McDonald’s French fries. I’m trying to remember. Which is weird to think about. I’m trying to remember a moment that I’m currently experiencing. Yet time is always moving so in a couple minutes that moment will become a past memory. So I do everything in my power to remember the faces. The sunshine. The way the wind is blowing. How happy I feel. Because if I’ve discovered anything about Life so far, it’s that the good times don’t last forever. Like the sibling who steals and eats all your halloween candy. Or takes your tooth fairy money. Or finds your Easter basket without telling you so you’re still searching for the next twelve hours. But not in a punishment kind of way. That’s just how Life is. You need to experience the bad to feel the good. But don’t tell me that after a long day of staring at a computer and then dealing with car after car cutting me off. I understand the whole “life is a rollercoaster” thing but that doesn’t mean that it still doesn’t suck.
You’re allowed to cry 3-5 times a week. Let it out. It’s gonna be alright.
BUT WHEN YOU’RE LIVING THOSE “OH MY GOSH LIFE IS SO GOOD RIGHT NOW I LOVE EVERYTHING I DON’T THINK IT COULD GET ANY BETTER UNLESS RYAN GOSLING CAME OUT OF THE AIR IN A HOT AIR BALLOON AND SAID WE SHOULD BE BEST FRIENDS AND TRAVEL THE WORLD TOGETHER” KIND OF MOMENTS, hold onto that.
Take a second to literally live in that moment.
Cause life can be super ugly but also so beautiful.
So hold onto those beauties of life to help you get through the ugliness.
I ranted way too long than I planned SO I’ll get to my point: I had a happy moment. Obviously. Why else would I be going into this much depth about it.
It was nothing huge or major. A simple Tuesday night. Went to a concert with some friends. To One Republic (all time favorite band) (ALL TIME). It’s amazing how much love you can have for people that you’ve never even met. Yes I am talking to you Ryan Tedder.
I am in love with music and dancing. Music is just so amazing. Like try to imagine a world without it and it turns into some Mad Max fantasy. Horrible. So thank you music for being amazing.
Music truly brings people together – connects them. When you’re at that concert and everyone in the venue is singing and dancing and screaming, it’s connecting. Which is also why I believe every concert should be outside. Cause have you ever tried dancing smushed between two stadium chairs? Not fun and not representative of the beautiful interpretive dancing you know you’re capable of showing off if it weren’t for those stupid chairs. It’s so cool to see music come to life after sining it in the car for so long. So I need room to express that coolness.
And when you hear song after song start playing, your heart jumps a little inside you. For this one perfect moment, you’re listening to music that you fell in love with. Dancing with your favorite people. Looking up and seeing the stars. While you’re listening to them playing “Counting Stars.” A song that I love so much that I literally had to be dragged out cause we wanted to get a jump on the traffic. Seriously my friend had to drag me out by my arm. And I was dancing outside of the exit. The security guard almost shut the door on me. He’s like “You already left” and I’m like “NO PLEASE THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG AND MY FRIENDS ARE MAKING ME LEAVE PLEEEAAASSSEEE.” He either thought I was pathetic or adorable cause he just laughed and turned around as I continued to dance and twirl and swing my arms around in various motions to music that I’m so in love with.
A couple hours before that I was starring at a computer for nine hours (my internship) just watching the time change in the lower right hand corner of the screen. Slowest. Day. Ever. But in the end that day turned out beautiful. I went home exhausted, tired, voice gone yet still filled with so much energy. There’s something about screaming your lungs out and dancing your heart out that brings you such joy.
And this is for sure one of those moments that will be stored away in my “happy times” folder. And One Republic, just keep doing the same angelic moving fantabulous soul filled music you’ve always been doing. And I’ll be over here – falling in love with you even more if that’s possible.
Go find your happy times. And for goodness sake hold on to them for dear life.